Assorted Poems and Thoughts
I've been writing poetry for several decades now. I also tend to edit (and re-re-edit) them. Here are a few of my better organized thoughts.
Thursday, January 28, 2010
THREE SKETCHES
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
The Sounds of Breaking
It wasn't the child's fault. No, it was the mother
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Body and Self
Some mornings when we two get out of bed
my aging body feels unhappy. It moves stiffly.
It whines. It complains bitterly
even after I have given it two cups of coffee.
It just wants to go back to bed and read a book.
I know, I know.
Itีs casting me as the harsh mistress who rides
on the shoulders of this frail dying slave,
cursing it as she flogs it up a steep path
strewn with loose pebbles and thorny plants.
The poor old thing totters on, moaning,
gasping for breath, stumbling over its [1])cane.
Nonsense!
I feel its pain after all and I have coddled it
with pills, podiatrists and expensive shoes.
All Iีm asking it to do is support me
as we move about, mostly on the level,
meeting with friends, buying groceries,
trying to keep fit by walking briskly.
An occasional hill perhaps. No tennis.
But once a year I do require it to go with me
to the mountains I love
and carry me around below to gaze
at the remembered heights we once moved through
with all the careless grace we used to share.
Jane J. Robinson 14/10/09
Monday, September 21, 2009
Paradise Left
Friday, June 19, 2009
Sonnet Web
I spin my web, complex and intricate,
Hoping to capture beauty by design
And snare a lucid truth wrapped in a line
For others to admire and contemplate.
But having spun this far, I hesitate
Though life is short and I begrudge the time
To check the meaning hidden in my rhyme.
I am uneasy. Crouching here, I wait.
What if, instead of moth or butterfly,
Fragile insects, pretty, small and weak,
Some unwanted truth has come my way,
A looming feathered thing that happens by,
Spots my web, swerves with open beak?
Have I been trapped? Could I become the prey?
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Learning to Grow Old
Monday, December 15, 2008
TIME TO GO Dedicated to the Memory of Beverly Fuchs,
Time to Go Context: The poem is dedicated to Beverley Fuchs, a dear friend who was also a member of a poetry group I belong to . She had recently written a charmingly optimistic poem about putting on earrings before going to meet her chemo therapist, so I knew that her health problem was a serious one and when she did not show up for our next meeting, I called her. She told me then that she was going into hospice and this would be the last time we could communicate. She added, าBut if you write another poem, would you email it to me? You know that both my husband Vic and I enjoy your poems. We hung up and I thought for a while about what kind of a poem I could send her. I also thought I want to go with her as far as I can. And then I wrote this poem:
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
The Aging Game
Looking backward, I can see
twenty one was the age for me.
I could cast my vote, I could buy a drink,
I could say whatever I happened to think.
(I sounded a lot like a “parlor pink”.)
Problems were simply for solving;
worth any candles my flame.
Around ME the world was revolving
and all my tigers were tame.
I thought to myself, “What a game!”
But forty one brings a pall of gloom.
Sure, I can vote. God help me, for whom?
I can think and drink, but I fear to utter
words that could cost me my bread and butter.
(Even my brain is beginning to stutter.)
Problems resist resolving.
Candles melt in a flame.
The world I knew is dissolving.
I’ve learned that tigers can maim.
At forty one it’s not the same damn game!
Conclusions:
Now in my eighties I’ve entered, I’m told,
a “golden age”. In short, I’m old.
But fears for my future no longer daunt me,
guilt bearing ghosts are too tired to haunt me
and friends and family still seem to want me.
So?
Insoluble problems? Outlast them.
No candles? Wait for the dawn.
Tigers? Walk warily past them.
Don’t stir them up; do move on
in this game, never lost, never won.
Jane J. Robinson, 22/7/08
(Next birthday, ninety. Who knows?)
Sunday, June 1, 2008
TIME TO GO
Come away, Love; we've had it here.
What better time to leave than Winter
when the nights are long?
Now while Orion strides the sky, the Dog Star at his heels,
we'll quit this tilted Earth that loops around the same sun every year
and hunt for different fields of stars.
And why should we regret the loss of Spring?
Regret fades fast in vagrant minds like ours.
We'll flash by Saturn first and spin away
in spirals far beyond Magellan's clouds,
aiming whatever we've become toward some dark mass
backlit by the secret suns its dust obscures.
Black holes be damned! And if one sucks us in,
think what a ride we'll have!
.
Here is my hand.
See how the flesh has fallen away
and veins show like the skeletons of leafless trees?
It still holds warmth.
Take it and come fearless
while we run the risks of Time.
We shall be stripped of everything, of course,
pared down to our essential selves;
but on we'll go beyond imaginable Beyond until
we reach the last horizon of events.
There we will rest together,
timeless
and complete
Jane J. Robinson.
June 2008
What better time to leave than Winter
when the nights are long?
Now while Orion strides the sky, the Dog Star at his heels,
we'll quit this tilted Earth that loops around the same sun every year
and hunt for different fields of stars.
And why should we regret the loss of Spring?
Regret fades fast in vagrant minds like ours.
We'll flash by Saturn first and spin away
in spirals far beyond Magellan's clouds,
aiming whatever we've become toward some dark mass
backlit by the secret suns its dust obscures.
Black holes be damned! And if one sucks us in,
think what a ride we'll have!
.
Here is my hand.
See how the flesh has fallen away
and veins show like the skeletons of leafless trees?
It still holds warmth.
Take it and come fearless
while we run the risks of Time.
We shall be stripped of everything, of course,
pared down to our essential selves;
but on we'll go beyond imaginable Beyond until
we reach the last horizon of events.
There we will rest together,
timeless
and complete
Jane J. Robinson.
June 2008
Monday, January 28, 2008
Wakings
I am riding in a bus...a cab?...
watching the road ahead unwind
through a shadowless desert glare.
I sit behind the driver, separated
from him by a glass partition.
We stop. The driver leaves his seat,
turns and comes to where I am.
He is leaning over me.
He is saying something. Is he asking me
to join him in the front?
His face reminds me of someone,
someone who is dead.
I am confused and cannot move or speak.
This is absurd.
I wait for him to ask again; instead
I hear the song of an insistent mockingbird
and raise my head.
The lighted numbers on the clock
tell that dawn is hours away.
I rise and in darkness take
the familiar route: three steps and touch
the corner of the bureau, leftward then,
reaching for the bathroom door.
Back to bed, relieved, I contemplate
turning on the light,
lapsing into printed page
and turning off my mind.
I do not want to see that road again
unwinding into a sunless glare beyond
this local time and place.
I do not want to face
that half-remembered face.
But now a customary light
lights the room. The mockingbird
is silent. In the wistaria that droops
above the window, a dove is flittering.
Twisting and bobbing her head, she calls
Hitherthitherwhither? Hitherthitherwhither?
Has she forgotten where she put her nest?
I am tired still; in disarray.
Too much coffee, too much poetry last night.
I must change my life. Again.
"Calm down," I tell the anxious dove
as I unhinge,
rise, stretch, begin
to face an uncontrollable day
unrolling towards another night.
Wakings
I am riding in a bus...a cab?...
watching the road ahead unwind
through a shadowless desert glare.
I sit behind the driver, separated
from him by a glass partition.
We stop. The driver leaves his seat,
turns and comes to where I am.
He is leaning over me.
He is saying something. Is he asking me
to join him in the front?
His face reminds me of someone--someone
who is dead.
I am confused and cannot move or speak.
This is absurd.
I wait for him to ask again; instead
I hear the song of an insistent mockingbird
and raise my head.
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
Body and Self
Some mornings when we two get out of bed,
my aging body feels unhappy. It moves stiffly.
It whines. It complains bitterly
even after I have given it two cups of coffee.
It just wants to go back to bed and read a book.
It’s casting me as the harsh mistress who rides
on the shoulders of this frail dying slave,
cursing it as she flogs it up a steep path
strewn with loose pebbles and thorny plants.
The poor old thing totters on, moaning,
gasping for breath, stumbling over its cane.
Nonsense!
I must feel its pain after all
and I have coddled it with pills, podiatrists,
and expensive shoes.
All I’m asking it to do is support me
as we move about, mostly on the level,
meeting with friends, buying groceries,
trying to keep fit by walking briskly.
An occasional hill perhaps. No tennis.
But once a year I do require it to go with me
to the mountains I love
and carry me around below to gaze
at the remembered heights we once moved through
with all the careless grace we used to share.
Saturday, June 2, 2007
Aubade
something is wrong thereีs no horizon.
the road unwinds out of a desert glare
barely in time to meet the wheels of this bus
--or is it a taxi I am riding in?
the driver turns his head
his lips move but there is no sound his face
reminds me of someone that I think is dead
Is he asking me to drive? How absurd!
I wait for him to speak again; instead
I hear the song of an insistent mockingbird
and raise my head.
The clock says 3 a.m. I burrow into a book.
I do not want to see that road again
unwinding from a sunless glare
outside of time and place.
I do not want to face again
that half-remembered face.
Once more I sleep and wake but now
a customary light invades my room.
Under the eaves outside an anxious dove
whitters and darts and dives
among the leaves of the wisteria.
Has she forgotten where she put her nest?
Calm down, I tell the frantic bird
as I get out of bed and turn
to address my Nemesis.
Hey You, who lie in wait for me
everywhere.
Pick one place and I will meet you there.
What face will you wear?
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
The Pebble Poem
Angles of Incidence and Reflection
Morning sunlight strikes a bowl of pebbles.
on the window sill. One catches my eye. My hand
reaches out to a flattened round of smooth stone
larger than an old fashioned pocket watch.
It covers half my palm.
I study the fine grained crystaline gray surface
that shades into swirls of delicate blue.
A streak of pale gold glistens
across a scatter of splashes colored like the moon.
It remains inert.
It does not purr.
Is it Beautiful?
Is it stone Truth?
Where and when did I pick it up? And why?
I donีt know.
But something nameless quickens my hand.
Something stirs behind my beholding eye.
jjr 2/14/07
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Then and Now
Looking backward, I can see
Wednesday, February 9, 2005
Villanelle
Loss
Like a bewildered child, a troubled creature
astray in a maze of tangled memories
she wanders. How much longer can love reach her?
Her past fades. Soon to have no future,
now is chaos. Confused by what she sees,
she stares ahead, a lost bewildered creature.
All that we can do is try to keep her
safe and close within the boundaries
where messages of caring love can reach her.
We gather round her, hands held out to offer
aid; we talk and smile to seem at ease
but see her wander on, a wary creature
evading strangers who might want to catch her.
{ Sleeping, she slips away by slow degrees
to deeper darkness where no love can reach her.
The thread is broken. When we try to touch her,
nothing happens. We watch as she withdraws
farther, faster -- a lost, beloved creature,
who feels no more this love that longs to reach her.
jrobinson Feb 9, 2000
Loss
Sunday, June 27, 2004
April 16, 1993 The Chestnut Horse
Briefly the moving window holds
a field of blowing grass
with woolen clumps of gray sheep grazing,
backs to the wind.
And there a single horse, a chestnut horse,
raises its burnished head, ears pricked,
eyes and nostrils sampling the world,
while the wind
whips the mane against its silken neck.
We pass.
But the mind tugs back
to beauty blazing in the grass.
Wordless among sheep in a windy field--
how can it know what it is? Jane Robinson
6/27/94
April 16, 1993
The Chestnut Horse
Briefly the moving window holds
a field of blowing grass
with clumps of gray sheep grazing,
backs to the wind.
And there a single horse, a chestnut horse,
raises its burnished head, ears pricked, eyes and nostrils sampling the world,
while the wind
whips the mane against a silken neck.
We pass.
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